Let me start here: l have not cut since, eh..... May-ish or so. I've been really strong and l am proud of myself for stopping for so long, but it is hard. And now l really feel myself getting sucked in again.

I am so depressed. Friends, school, parents, siblings, it is too hard to handle. l feel like I am getting pulled in every direction. l get extremely angry sometimes and then l find myself getting extremely sad. Tears do not fall anymore though.

l just really feel like picking that razor up again..... l know l should not but l think it would make me feel a little better.....

Can anyone help me out?
l do not wanna start cutting again, yet l do..... does that make sense?

Any past/recovered cutters that can help me out here??

l am a cutter, have not broken skin since April of this year. But l am going through a lot right now as well, and it IS really really hard. The only thing l can say is to tell you like my Dad tells fellow drug addicts, take it one day at a time. That is what l am doing, and it is worked so far. It might stop working one day, and l might do it again, but then l will just start my days again.

you need to remove all the razors and knives from your home.only plastic sporks should be permitted

Hey --

First of all, u should be really proud of yourself that u have not cut since May-ish or so.

l am an ex-cutter & yes it is really hard NOT to . it is so addictive & for some odd reason it feels sort of good at the time. But, it is not a constructive way to deal with problems AND those problems do not just go away because u cut. It might make u feel better in the very short term, but not for long & then the cycle gets started again.

And, do u really want the scars? l was on the bus the other day holding on to to the top rail thingy & some guy (very loudly) pointed out the marks on my wrist. Very embarrassing!

Can u talk to anybody about this? A school councellor, a therapist, a good friend?

Best of luck!

l used to cut. Have not for about 2 years...
All l can say is that u should be proud! You have gone 5 months without cuttting. That is almost half a year. Do not break that record. Soon, 5 months turns into a year, a year turns into 2 years, 3 years, & so on. And after a while, u will look back & say, '' l am SO glad l got over that phase in my life with no scars & my wirsts intact!''

The things that r making u depressed r normal. Write in a journal, punch a pillow, talk to someone. Just do not cut. Stay strong!

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l used to cut.. when l was a crazy misunderstood teen.. funny though, how l used to think so much of all the small trivial things .. but then l realized that i'm just taking out on my self.. no one is going to feel the pain of the cuts but me.. so would that really be helping me get over my problems? nahh, i'm just making it worse.. problem is it really does releive ur pain for a little while.. l still have some of the scars on my arm. but then l realized that it just was not worth it.. do l want to waste my life taking out my pain on myself? NO. l want to live a long full life & be happy & enjoy every minute of it. Remember ever 60 seconds spent sad is a minute of happiness u will never get back.

yeah okay listen, i've been there & done that. l know that feeling of being completely torn between doing it or not doing it. that sense of relief is all u want, but u know the consequence after (the guilt & the shame) is worse. it will only make u feel temporarily better & u KNOW that. l always say that advice is what u ask for when u already know the answer but wish u didn't. dont do it, the urge will pass & u will be so proud of yourself for not doing it. u have to stop letting it control you, stand strong & take control over ur life & ur actions. l promise, what u find in the experiences & the people around u is worth WAY more then what u will find in a razor blade. u just have to work through that depression, & l know how it feels to just be so tired u dont even want to work through it, u would just rather take the easy way & cut. but im so glad l didn't, ive gotten so far, & u will too. this is just a relapse, if u didnt do it for this long, u can not cut for longer. take it a day at a time, u will get there l promise. good luck xx