I've been really stressed lately..Things have been pretty shiteous for me. There have been alot of things l have not dealt with that l really can not think about, and when l do, it wrecks me completely. l feel like I am a different person and then whenever I am happy again I am left to pick up the pieces. l really need some advice, so hear me out. My dad was abusive to myself and mother along with my two other brothers up until the age of eight when they divorced. From there l was sexually abused and harassed by my stepgrandfather, coming home at night to my single mom breaking windows, abusing us, breaking windows, something every night. Around 10 l remember getting interviewed by DSS. l pretty much raised myself, my mom was never around when she was not screaming bitching and abusing. My brother and l confronted my father about his abuse around the same time, and he denied it aswell. When she got out of school earlier this year, four years later, she played innocent aswell. I am piled with schoolwork and l really do not have time for a mental breakdown. I am in my first year of highschool. l wanna be homeschooled to purse my carreer. I've been singing and dancing since l was four, and homeschooling will give me time to focus on my music. I've done this all by myself.I've been depressed as fuck for the past year and a half and my mom just gives me the occasional day off and other than that says l need therapy but that is it. Whenever I am upset, it is ''what now?'' from her. This whole entire thing is so exhausting for me, you have no idea how bad l just wanna feel happy again. Regardless of if l skip school, me escaping from reality for a day is not gonna help much considering I am gonna be tossed right back in the pit tommorow. l feel more alone, angry, and hurt more than anyone will ever know. I am about to lose it, l feel like I am being held back from what really makes me happy. I am im such a horrible place in my life right now. I've already wasted a half hour crying over this, I've still got an essay to write. What the hell can l do to get my life back on track?

Dollie, l know how you feel. To get away from your ''bad'' **** life, you can think about your future, imagine IF you have time. l would always said to myself, ''follow your heart, it will lead the way''. Always remember and no matter what really happen, ''taste bitter and you soon realise the sweetness''.

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