l am really wondering if l should go see a therapist or check myself into a mental hospital.

l have recently thought a lot about suicide, but it is very intermittent.Some days, l am very happy and full of energy, and some l sleep until 3 pm.

My mood changes many times during the day.Sometimes, l am hanging out with friends and having a great time and suddenly l will have the urge to kill myself.The other day l was on the top floor in a parking garage with some friends and l really wanted to just throw myself over the edge.

There is nothing that bad about my life.In fact, l am pretty privileged.But, l just watched the documentary The Bridge and l think if l ever am on the Golden Gate, l will most likely jump off.

I am not sure whether to get help because who knows what mood l will be in when l seek treatment.

What should l do?
l have never been tested for bipolarism yet, l have suspected that a close family member may have it.How would one go about getting tested?
l am 19.And l do not believe this is a phase as it has been going on for a few years...

Yes, get help!

You should not commit suicide. That is what you should do.

Do not do that, that is selfish. Think of all those you will hurt and also think of all those who had to die and did not get to live. Please, get help, but be careful with the mental ward, you will be labeled for life. Talk to a counselor and read on it, but do get help, and try to find something you like, something to live for, no matter how minute.

everytime u have the urge to jump off of a bridge. throw a babydoll off the bridge.
and find other ways to vent
maybe start online fights in chatrooms
you will feel better at least

have you ever checked yourself out for bipolar disease?

it is possible that u r bi-polar. that just means that ur mood swings from high to low.sometimes very high---mania, or very low--depression. there is a lot of help for this because believe it or not many people have it. so no matter what mood u r in still see the dr. & explain what happens. they will take it from there. good luck!

Edit: the doctors will ask u a series of questions about ur symptoms & family health history. this does not sound like a phase that u r going through, it seems very real. do not worry, as l said, there is lots of help. just start with telling ur regular dr. & he will tell u where to go from there. Do NOT let anyone tell u that this is all in ur mind. to many people do not take things like this seriously because they do not understand it on a medical level. get a professional to help you.

l think that u should consider going to a therapist or psychologist. You can also try going to a mental health organization, which may refer u onto a psychiatric ward, or other sort of organization like that, which can help with this particular problem. Also, there should be some crisis lines in ur area that deals with suicidal problems. Whenever u feel like committing suicide, it would be a good idea to give one of these agencies a call. l will try & look for link that might have some information.

http://sfsuicide.org/index2.html
http://sfsuicide.org/html/NeedHelp.html
http://talklineforparents.org/
http://sanfrancisco.citysearch.com/yellowpages/directory/San_Francisco_CA/30/534/page1.html

l m facing the same problem as urs, l constantly think thoughts of commiting suicide, l think if u keep on thinking like this ur gonna end up taking ur own life which l think is not the right thing to do l think u should definetly go to a mental health expert or discuss ur problems with a friend or family member because bottling up ur emotions is going to make it worse, assuming that this is ur photograph on avatar u look so beautiful why would such a girl want to end her life , l m sure if u stick in there pretty soon ur gonna find a good boy for urself which l think is gonna give u something to look forward in life, there r chances that ur suffering from depression so it hink it is better that u go to a doctor as quickly as possible & please do not think about taking ur life u have still long way to go in life.

In all honesty it sounds like what you're going through is absolutely normal. Fifteen is an age where you're trying to grab onto something, & make some sense of the world. It is normal that u think death & suicide r pointless, & it is also normal that smoking pot intensifies those feelings. There r plenty of ways to make a difference in life, & as u grow older u will see them. Enjoy the age you're at now, everything is fine. And when you're older if u still want to make that kind of difference go for it.

Well this is when Get From Millions of People is not a great idea. You need one opinion from an expert. See the doctor. It is not normal thinking.

You have bipolar or a similar disorder with rapid cycling.

If you feel that you may be a danger to yourself, you should be evaluated by a psychiatrist who, of course, will prescribe medication.

You should be monitored by a therapist to ensure your safety. Talking to someone should help somewhat but is no cure.

One other suggestion: Check out this website: mentalhealthsolutions.info