Oh my goodness, l can not take it anymore :(

l honestly do not know what to do to feel good again.l keep worrying about how my brother feels about me.l want him to respect me and l know he loves me, but why am l doubting this? l really feel like I am in this strange rut, that l know l can get out of, but I am having trouble doing so.

I've been feeling weird like this on & off for the last 3 weeks.l wake up dreading going to work because l started a new job a month ago and do not really like it, but can not quit because l really need the money and I am trying to be strong and make it work.When l come home, l can not really relax because I am tired from work and l live with my brother (he and l are a few years apart, I am 28) and l worry about how he feels about me.We've always been really really close.l know he loves me and l love him dearly, which is why l think I am making myself mentally sick over this.

About 2 weeks ago, l had a talk with him.l asked him if lsaid or did anything to make him feel differently.He said no, why would l ask that?

Now l just feel awkward around him.l can not just let loose and be myself because l wonder what he thinks of me.l still feel like I am carrying weight on my shoulders, but l do not know why because I've already talked with him and he said everything is fine.

I am a pretty sensitive person and sometimes he does not mean to, but he has a way of making me feel inferior to him.

I've got to stop feeling this way because it is taking a toll on me.

l do not know what to do, what to say, it is really a strange situation, that l NEED to get out of!

This worrying about my brother and not liking my job.

Any advice, l would greatly appreciate it.

Thank you for listening and for your suggestions.

l know l can do this.Thanks again.

Trace back ur footsteps & find where this feeling originally started. Why? Time & date?
You r craving for his love & attention.
You want to be noticed & want him to be proud.
If u want things to get better u should take him for supper or coffee & tell him how u feel. Tell him that this is killing you, & tell him is that all u want is to know u mean something to him. Tell him u love him & want him to be ur brother forever. No matter what happens.