First of all thank-you for reading my question;

My step dad had an affair with my friends mum and my friend is suicidal. l was the only one she turned to and now she wo not talk to me and I’m worried about her. If my mum kicks my step dad out (she said she will) he wants me and my half-brother aged 5 to go with him as he thinks my mum wo not cope with us. My mum quit work, is on sleeping tablets, anti-depressants, and constantly breaks down…
That was a few weeks ago and things have kind of changed now.
l heard my mum and step dad having one of their ‘chats’ and well my mum was discussing reasons as to why my step dad would have done that. one reason was that maybe it is because my mum can not have anymore kids but 'she' has possibly got 2 or 3 of his kids when my mum only has one. So l feel as if it is my fault for not being 'his' daughter. Knowing this really does not help with my (failed) attempts not to self-harm again.
Then this morning my mum mentioned to me that if l want my step dad to keep living with us then l must not get any pocket money / give them $480 a year...heres the thing; everytime l see him l hate myself just a little bit more. Any why should l give somebody who hates me and makse me hate myself all my money. On the other hand if l do give him my money and he does stay then my brother and me in a way will still have a dad.
and if he does leave then im scared when my brother grows up he will hate me and to be quite honest my brother is the only person l am staying alive for.



one of my friends says do not do it...what do you think / any other suggestions aer very much appreciaetd.

much love Rachel

sounds hard.only one person can answer this & even though u might be to small to answer u must decide for u & ur brotheres future.

looking at this question l would say ''just a bit more'' & then when l think the time comes l would choose the one that fits us right since both of my parents would have a problem.but im not you

sorry, its all up to u & no one else can help u on this decision but there r people that can help u after u have made a desicion

there will always be someone watching over u & ur brother = )

u sound like me 5 years ago. It is not worth having a person around that does not want to be there just so u have a person to call dad. please trust me if he loves u he will visit if not he wasnt worth having. u will all be happy. from the bottom of my heart if l live to keep u from making a mistake then l have fufilled my pupose in life. My sister is all l live for & if u ask her if she has a dad she will say no. That mans own issues is not u or ur moms fault. let her b happy & meet someone els. please.